‘If only’ – a sonnet

‘Hey my flat mates having a party do you want to come?’

the dreaded words you wish you didn’t just hear.

Suddenly you rack you brain for a list of excuses that don’t sound dumb,

anything to avoid that uncomfortable sneer.

 

You say ‘yes’ for once, hoping this time won’t be like the last,

then the countdown begins and the fear takes hold.

Don’t overthink it, forget about the past,

this is your time to be brave and bold.

 

The day is finally here, no turning back now,

suddenly you feel sick and debate pretending you’re ill.

Wish you could shut up the voice in your head, if only you knew how,

You’ve mastered the art of saying ‘no’ to a fine skill.

 

If only I didn’t overthink so much and miss out on everything,

but instead felt confident, then I could achieve anything.